The Faults

"To err is human - to forgive is divine.." we say, only when we err. Yet, when others wrong us, we are suddenly the victimized, the bleeding, the broken.. 
We may use the fact that we were once, or twice, hurt badly to hurt someone else just as badly.
This is all automatic and involuntary. Will we still do that if we give ourselves a chance to be a little bit more conscious? Maybe, if we control our impulsive words and actions.

We are protective of our pains; we tend to hold on to them and use them as bullets to shoot those we think are bound to hurt us, even if we knew at heart that they are not the monsters. Hence, we become the monsters.

This repetitive pattern is neither in our favor nor in others', it cannot possibly answer the question of "who is really at fault?"
If the first person to hurt you was hurt by someone else and that someone else was once wronged by another...etc.

Sometimes, even if it hurts, we need to put an end to this pattern. Not everyone deserves pain.

Some people might love us, truly, and fancy us, while we're too concentrated on giving the most hideous gift someone else has given us to those people that sit right there and care for us. Those people that can understand us in ways beyond our realization, those people we turned away because we were oblivious.
We were first oblivious, and then we became selfish.. We could not even humble ourselves to realize what we were doing.

And just when we realize what we have put some people through, we begin to digest the fact that we are just as messed up - as cruel as whoever hurt us, but it's too late to make amends.

This one's for you - anyone..

I'm sorry.